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When using Facebook, you are going to find on occasion that the number of friends you have drops, for no apparent reason. Now, there are different reasons why this actually happens. First, a person might have actually deactivated their account. This has nothing to do with you and it means that they did not specifically unfriend you or block you, but instead they just shut down their own account. The second issue is someone might have their account deactivated due to continually breaking Facebook regulations. There are different rules and guidelines everyone on Facebook needs to follow in order to have their account maintained. If they do not do this, their account is going to be shut down. In order to answer the question of how to tell if someone blocked you on Facebook , you need to follow through with a few, basic steps. How to Tell If Someone Blocked You on Facebook? First, just because they do not appear on your friends list does not mean that they have blocked you. You are still able to locate their profile listing, even if you are not able to reach it. Due to this, you need to type in their name into the search bar. If nothing comes up, it means there is a strong chance they simply turned off their account or had it deactivated. If, however, they do turn up during the search, but you are not able to actually view their account, there is more of a chance that they potentially blocked you. Read more about Being Blocked on Facebook here: /> /> /> /> Connect with NoBullying.com today - Our website - />Facebook - />Twitter - />Pinterest - />Google Plus - />Linkedin - /> Also check out some of NoBullying.com's most popular articles: /> /> /> /> /> /> /> /> /> /> /> About NoBullying: Nobullying.com is an online forum aimed at educating, advising, counselling and all importantly, helping to stop bullying, in particular, cyber bullying.This website started as a social responsibility project for us, but through the support of a community of parents, educators and teenagers – it has grown into one of the biggest anti bullying and online safety websites in the world. We owe a great deal of thanks to everyone who has contributed to the website, from donating their time, donating written articles to help others to even sharing the website on social media for others to find. Every kind action, big or small – has enabled us to help others. If you want to know more on the website statistics or who we are – check out the bottom of this article. We hope you too will also press the “share” button on the page – to share the website with your friends on social media – who may be facing a problem with bullying today.We at Nobullying.com work closely with and are delighted to gain the insight of many professionals including psychologists, teachers and other experts, we really cherish the input and experiences of parents and children of all ages, on this topic. Read More:



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Transistor Express
Well this all fits the description.
Brian Isley
when i went to text a friend, it said..this person isn't available right now..what that mean?
Lasha Shantadze
Why on earth do people accept your friend request then block the person
Lasha Shantadze
I'm trying to find someone's Facebook and when I go in it it disapears
nathaniel bigay
thanks i thought that my crush blocked me.
Nena Dominguez
My cousin blocked me from Facebook and we aren't even friends on it wth I hate him either way😊
Brian Isley
what pops up is, this person isn't available right now
Potato Squad
#1Can you help me i searched her name for example her name is "jess" so when i searched it i cant open it does it mean she blocked me?? #2I can still message her but when i go to her profile it says something went wrong but i can still message her does that mean she blocked me?? #3 my friend can search her but how am i not?? Pls help me bro she's my bestfriend pls help me
Lisa Hoffman
Wed. Apr. 18, 2018 I was woken up again from a dream this morning but this time it was the barking dogs I hear occasionally in this area. It got me to thinking about Frisky, our childhood pet and how she dropped from a supposed spinal injury and both back legs were paralyzed. I think that was the infancy of their technology for the manipulation of dogs, and people. They make animals and people stupid now, because they're stupid themselves. Its amazing you know, I've seen teams of white guys using city resources to mow down wildflowers on train tracks, I've seen a gas be dropped and seen trees and underbrush and insects dying, there was mutilated animals and dead animals strewn about in certain places, there are more and more genetically malformed dogs and some who's eyes are as twisted as some of the 'people' around. They refuse me answers, they refuse me sleep, they refuse me companionship, and I don't see anyone who acts they can acknowledge anything that's happening. There's one song I have that blatantly acknowledges the destruction of nature and the control of minds, but not one answer as to who cares, or what to do, or who's really responsible. I was thinking about that Timothy McVeigh story, where he tried to talk about technology and they destroyed him and his reputation. And now they harass me daily. They're despicable, loveless creatures, that's all I know about them. I still think all those weird looking 'people' that are up north getting new homes and new cars are being rewarded for their assistance in destroying nature and anyone who knows and cares. Someone in my word choice screen wrote 'the kindness water'. Is that supposed to mean those who poisoned the water are kind? Anyone sane knows that's not true. What scares me is no one seems to care, and I'm constantly surrounded by these idiots who don't have enough human compassion to understand how they control life and others is cruel. Like I said last night, these idiots, in my opinion, influenced me to forget my phone was out and use the washroom in front of my phone without thinking. It pisses me off how disgusting and immature their tactics are. I think it was at the prompting of this ugly thing I live with. What they've done to people has serious health implications, I've seen what happened to Frisky. I've seen guys in wheelchairs with eyes askew, some barely able to talk, and I'm sure its a result of the same abusive control technology. I seriously think blue eyes are evil and their green eyed and weird eyed lackeys are just as potentially evil. Many of them are stupid. This thing I live with, he has mental tantrums in my mind. I know he does. Weird things and thoughts happen when he's around. A negative influence is what I think he is. I should be secured by mature, intelligent and moral people, yet instead I am harassed and used by morons who haven't the intellect to understand the repercussions or cruelty of their actions, they simply don't care. I should be talking to kind and caring people about what's happened to me, this country, my childhood, but apparently there's more disgusting creatures only interested in lies, propaganda, control and denial, and continuing the use of this abusive and horrible technology. I don't want to be around these morons anymore. All they care about is themselves, learning how to control others and they don't have the morals normal people should. Apparently alot in my life never had the morals they should've. They're so childish and cowardly they think manipulating people to hurt themselves or humiliating them is appropriate, like I said about how my mind was stunned yesterday about the phone and washroom, and then the YouTube videos that had comments about 'nice crotch shot' and other indirect and cowardly insinuations. They're not human enough to confront like normal adults would. They cowardly harass, they humiliate us within our own minds and essentially have tantrums within our own minds and cause us to hurt ourselves. They're not capable of talking like normal people would and confront as normal people would, and always will have the immature need for dominance and control of others. My metaphor of them being the child that beats the dog when mommy and daddy aren't looking, isn't quite accurate, because mommy and daddy in this case, encourages their ridiculous and cowardly behavior. I understand I can't do anything about their influence, but I don't want to be forced to live with these selfish, immature, intrusive and perverse things anymore. I deserve to live around caring, honest and respectful people, not these idiotic things. These disgusting things have stopped my menstrual cycle, manipulate, deny me proper housing and sleep, they force me to be around them and I despise everything about them. They're horrible, selfish, cruel, idiotic, perverse, cowardly, manipulative, nasty creatures, who will never understand what it is to be human and to love. Every day they manipulate me is more proof of how they'll never mature or think more rationally themselves. They have no right to deny me human companionship, they have no right to manipulate the way they do, and I should be with a human health care professional to get answers for what they've done to my menstrual cycle and what I had when I was violate by whomever that caused my feminine problems. I deserve to know sane and loving people, because that's what I can be when not around idiots who can't. Up north there was empty towns, but who remained was horrible, pale skinned beings who had purple and red splotches on their faces, and weirdly eyed and teethed beings whose behavior was almost always strange. I keep thinking about that time last summer where a digustingly bulbous creature was beside me, and I was singing how his belly was full of sorrow and suffering and a green eyed female with rotting and sharp teeth started yelling, "That's my dad! Do you want me to drill your head into the ground? Because I'll do it right now!" I've been dealing with that behavior and mentality since my life fell apart. I don't know if they grow these children in a lab and then tell them they're their children but obviously control them and encourage them to be violent and nasty because they're not man enough to speak for themselves, but they really do have nasty dispositions and nasty behavior most of the time. That Daniel guy I met in North Bay was seeming to be honest. He showed me developments and he showed me the car wrecking yard where hundreds if not thousands of cars were being stored and demolished, but then would behave erratically when we were in public which pissed me off because it was as though he was trying to make me seem insane by associating with him. He was extremely thin and said he was living outdoors in a forested area near the mall. I couldn't handle his erratic behavior and was dealing with my own problems. I felt sorry for him, and yet angry because I'm sure he was meant to discredit me in public with his behavior. It might not be all their faults, they might not all be evil, but I need to speak with sane and rational people, and I deserve explanation and help from honest people. I dont want to be around these manipulative monsters with horrible eyes(mostly blue) and bulbous stomachs and purple skin. I can't handle their idiotic and immature behavior anymore. I might not always be the sanest, but I'm not them. One night I was sleeping in a stairwell in that mall in North Bay, and that Daniel guy was sleeping against the wall opposite me, and I awoke to two guys standing over us saying, "Sorry buddy." Then they walked away. I'm not sure if they planted him with me to discredit me and make me seem insane, or if they ostracized him as well. I can't handle all this insanity and bizarreness I've never seen before. And no one really quite prepared me for this. Music and artwork was always metaphorical or imaginative as far as I knew. What I really need to know is someone human and caring and understanding. No one around seems to care at all, it really is the most creepy thing I've ever witnessed. A total apathy and deliberate ignorance from almost all around.
Lisa Hoffman
Since Facebook won't let me post, I'll post here. They blocked me again today. When I was coming back from the library, a red faced older male prompted me to look at him and he made chewing motions with his mouth as his half-asian-looking wife got in the car. I've realized most of the things that manipulate us are red faced or purple faced now. Those things, these things won't acknowledge the blatant use of mind control. I was also thinking about real people, how Vietnamese real people were short, round faced mostly, dark skinned and flat faced. The only real footage you see of that is usually war footage of them being pistol whipped or murdered by disgusting things. Real native people were dark skinned, flat faced, round faced, shorter people. Now everyone is half white, half non human really, if not more than half. When I would watch Vietnam war movies made in the eighties I never realized how tall and white and 'Hollywood' they all portrayed the Vietnamese 'people' as. These things, most of the population, is not human anymore. And none of them acknowledge that fact either. They're a part of the same invasive species that wiped out most human tribes and communities. I might look like that, but I'm my mom, first and foremost and I don't agree with mind control or marauding and murdering other people's lives and eradicating their way of existence like these disgusting things do. That's truth, whether any of these assholes want to acknowledge it or not.
Lisa Hoffman
You know what I still can't understand or figure out? Is who would tell me about these things, when its these things that manipulate our minds in the first place? Why would shapeshifters put the suggestion in my mind of shapeshifters before I even knew what they were or what they were doing to the planet? It doesn't make sense. Something or someone else told me about things that marauded all over the world and enslaved real humans. But I don't believe humans can influence thought, and it really doesn't make sense for them to badmouth themselves, especially since they've destroyed this country and violated women and children and almost eradicated humanity everywhere.
Lisa Hoffman
Every day I have to look at the scars these disgusting things have put all over my face, but they're born ugly, inside and outside of themselves. I was beautiful, they will always be disgusting things with no feelings.
Lisa Hoffman
Sun. Apr. 15, 2018 There's ice and snow everywhere. I've been thinking about Nazis. I want to be with equals, not superior-complexed pedophiles and deviants. I never thought I'd think of whites as the problem or as evil, but they are. Ever since I've  lived on Barker there's been a strange mix of beings who came in and out of my life, but the dark people never stayed constant. I still don't understand who the good guys are. If Giba is a snake, others are Nazis, who's the good guys? These things think if we're a mix of them it will be the superior race? A mix of humans who could love and feel, and these things that can't and don't and have abused us all our lives? What a fucked up world. Someone said a long time ago I should learn how to pretend. Why? Pretend to understand rapists and pedophiles and assholes who have ruined our lives and minds? I don't know what to do. Whenever I met smaller, dark skinned guys, they'd either never stay or some problem would happen. Why was I meeting guys that just came to this country from South America and where did they go? How many of them are snakes like Giba? The one thing I know for sure is fat and pampered is almost always the evil army. I guess I know what I'm always living with these days. Fat, disgusting things making people sleep with them, fat, disgusting things who molested children. I'm totally disgusted by these deviants, and yet where do I go? Why are they so sick in their heads? Most of Burlington was full of pedophiles, my life as a teenager was filled with pedophiles and perverts. Why are they so disgusting? Why are they always raping what they hate? Are they animals? And of course they deny it, but I know it, others I knew know it, many children of my generation must know it also. Why are they so perverse and evil? What makes them so sick in their heads? I could make a list of all of them that would probably be as long as I am. They've always been around me. Why doesn't everyone human talk about it? How long do these things expect to rape and molest people and get away with it? I don't understand why they're so perverse. Will I ever know a real man that can respect and love human women? Okay, I might be half them, I still say I'm not. I'm totally disgusted by them. I'm definitely not the heartless, cold and loveless and perverse things they are. Is there anywhere in this world where people exist, people who aren't Nazis? Why are they so vain as to think they're race is the only race that matters and why are they turning all races into themselves? Why do they choose to be mind manipulated machines? What the hell is wrong with them? Where do they come from? Why do they resemble humanity but have no human decency or emotion? Why do they choose to be a 'borgian' assimilated society and why are they so vain and shallow? What am I supposed to do? They're either horrible loveless Nazis, horrible bulbous snakes (I'm guessing the same thing really) and half breed people who are fucked in the head. What the hell am I supposed to do? I'm not really any of them, even though my mind can't be trusted, my heart and humanity within me can be. I'm not like these disgusting things, that's for sure. I'm grossed out. I keep thinking about when Alex told me he was forced to sleep with general's wives who were sometimes fat, and mostly perverse. Why do they like to have sex with people who are disgusted by them or scared of them? Why are they so fucking disgusting and deviant! Why is it people want love and relationships and these disgusting things only eat and fuck and control? Why are they so empty and evil? It's so bizarre and grotesque it makes my stomach turn when I think about him or myself and all the abuse and sexual abuse by disgusting, fat, loveless, racist, ugly, manipulative things. Who in this society actually cares? All these things do is deny and pretend they're civilized and normal, yet the reality is they don't care about anything. I wish I could have a relationship with a real man who can feel and I wish we could live with dignity and privacy and not watched or controlled by these lowlife deviants who have no conscience. Every day I get more and more frustrated being around these disgusting liars. What do they do? Why do they sit around controlling and ruining others lives while getting fatter and fatter? What's the point? I don't understand their controlling and evil personality disorders, while they accuse many people of the mental disorders they so obviously have. They are many, they are bullies, they are better at hiding their insane behaviors because they protect each other. They are rapists, they are manipulators, they are cowardly murderers, and they get away with it over and over again. I wish I could understand what makes them so sick in their heads. Sure, I have influences, but I can fight most of the nasty influences, they seem to embrace it, and then completely deny any guilt of any actions. I blamed myself years later for the time I snapped and hit Chimo, they abuse and rape and pedophile and deny and have no remorse and make no apologies. They never even acknowledge and they never explain and we never get justice. I have a conscience they obviously lack. This thing lies to me everyday and even tries to reverse the blame or accuse others of having a lack of conscience, and he's the same thing as them. They have no ability to accept responsibility or acknowledge what they are. They don't feel no matter what they say. They have no remorse or shame. People punish themselves and blame themselves for mistakes they made that weren't even their fault most of the time, and these things won't and can't even acknowledge their own guilt and what they are. They're sociopaths who accuse people of mental disorders to absolve themselves of any wrongdoing and their own mental disorders. Everyday this disgusting thing I live with says something to me that has no relevancy to anything about me. I feel he's always talking through me, and I'm sure they're the same deviants who raped most of the children of our generation. Its more and more difficult every day to pretend that I don't know what him and his wife are. They have no conscience nor morals nor shame. I'm disgusted by most in this building and in this city. I'm sure he makes indirect threats all the time, because he's not a man, he's not a warrior, he's a mindless, loveless soldier or something. He's disgusting. I've told him to leave me alone, go talk to his wife, but he always needs to do or say something through me rather than talk to me. Can any of these things do anything for themselves?
Lisa Hoffman
They won't let me post my revisions again with my usual copy and paste, but they will let me post this. Hypocrites that edit what information I try to say. What I added was how I was thinking about going to the FBI considering I can't rely on this government for help, answers. But considering the state of the world and lack of acknowledgement, I doubt I'll get help anywhere. I know I should be able to call real cops, tell the RCMP what these disgusting things do to people. I'm not the only abuse victim being terrorized, but for some reason we can't get legitimate help from real men with morals.
Lisa Hoffman
Sat. May 19, 2018 It's rainy and misty today. I have been thinking for the past few days about my so-called friends on and off. Julian smashed my head off the subway wall, and then out came a fat guy almost immediately after, and conveniently the rest of the subway was empty. Alex smasher my head at a Cannibal Corpse show, and Tim smashed my head off a pool table around a bunch of white guys, claiming I chipped his tooth which I know I didn't. They all were trying to blow my mind, I'm sure of it. It's not bad enough I lost my family, its not bad enough they did disgusting things to me and my mind in hospitals and with those things that call themselves foster parents, then I get degraded and watched by a bunch of vain and self-righteous elites and judged by them without even knowing that's what they were doing. Then I got continuously harassed and used for the rest of my life. I know almost every reason for war has been made up and lies. I know that rice was probably the main reason Vietnam got wiped out. Some disgusting creatures that expect the world to be their slaves and feed them all the time got sick and murdered many innocent people and then hurt their children. The reasons for my pain and sorrow is because food made others sick, that's how ridiculous this world is, that's how selfish all around me always were. I'm really starting to resent food in many ways. Most of the fruits and vegetables are tasteless and shit now. I hate the way they farm animals, they're cruel. And even people are being farmed like animals now. I'm so angry about it all. This thing I live with likes colgnes that smell like noxious chemicals. I prefer flower smells. I guess that says it all. When I think about how unfair and brutal they are it disgusts me. They rain down bombs and chemicals and gases and use mind control and all people have ever had to fight with is themselves and whatever weapons they could use. Technically it's always been 'bringing sticks to a missile fight'. I was so mad yesterday thinking about how Ross would lecture me on how I needed to work and support myself, how when I was on welfare when I was a teenager I was leeching off the system, how that fat snake who cost me my job at the vet's office and called my lazy when I already had a job because I wouldn't go to a job fair with her, how Melissa called me lazy which was a blatant lie, and all of them were using me, manipulating me, and leeching off my very existence all my life. What a bunch of hypocritical idiots! They're all a bunch of self-righteous assholes who thought I was 'lucky to even be alive'. I've said many times, and I'll say it again, I wish them all my luck. In order to be as lucky as me they have to feel as alone as I do, as hurt as I was, as voyeured and humiliated as I was and as raped and violated as I was, and then we can all share the luck. They have each other and their selfish and greedy and vain mentality to share with each other and appreciate each other's shallowness and inability to be honest. I have no one. I have no one kind, honest and loving. Why? Because of food and power and the vanity of others. Most of real mankind has been wiped out whether these idiots on YouTube and elsewhere want to acknowledge that fact. That old lady that told me 'East is east, and west is west, and ne'er the twain shall come together', or whatever the literal words are, the only reason we're in the west is because we were brought here to be servants and breeders for disgusting things that are the ugliest inside and outside I've ever known. They won't even acknowledge their passive-aggressive behavior of manipulating others to do wrong or be self destructive, that's how cowardly and useless their race is. And all around no one seems to care except to accuse those with the affliction of control of being a danger to society, when the real danger is those cowards who control humanity the way they do. The real danger walks around with degrees and diplomas and work at hospitals and for governments that knowingly harm people's minds this way. And another thing, farmers these days have no right to call themselves farmers. They might as well all be wearing lab coats. Nothing is real, nothing is honest, and I'm tired of being in a society that has no use for truth and justice and cruelly and sadistically denies me companionship and intimacy with a real man. They all think they're superior to me, and I think they're all cowards and liars.
Lisa Hoffman
Sun. May 6, 2018 The fire alarm went off this morning. I ignore it now. Yesterday I went to the park and had a few beers and listened to music. What else can I do? I've been thinking about the differences of them all, thinking about how thin have others stayed around me and who was the most mentally abusive. Friday nights I'd smoke twice as much when I drank and jammed. Thinking about their passive-aggressive behavior and how they attack us in our minds. These things I live with say they're not violent, but their violence is done through our thoughts as we hurt ourselves, stay inert, chainsmoke. It's an impossible chain to break. I can't figure out what Alex is really. I can remember times when he was cruel. But they all seem to have a cruel streak. Without open dialogue, I can't know who's intentions are true. These things I live with are liars. They've all lied to me one way or another. Now they all behave as though all they eat is normal food. But technically, is any food normal anymore? I could ask questions forever and never get answers. Like I was saying, from the smallest and most menial problems to the huge problems of today, I find myself thinking about it all in different moments and with different viewpoints. I hate violence, but even more I hate control and manipulation. These things seeem to keep 'people' that are mentally retarded and not educated, maybe even grown that way on purpose, which is cruel and disgusting. I was thinking about how I would sometimes swim where they have the Tim Horton's camp for the mentally retarded, and then Sarah and me stopped being friends and I went elsewhere. They do make people retarded on purpose, I'm sure of it. Maybe they were told I couldn't swim there anymore because I was swimming with their food, which is creepy. But that doesn't mean they aren't abusive or controlling or perverse just because they allowed us to swim. It's the cruelty of the mind control, the chemicals they force on people, the cowardly and cruel ways they murder people. It's trying to figure out who cares about it all that is more and more difficult. I feel like I was raised by monsters, slowly killing myself with cigarettes and being abused by them all my life. As though they hang around us and toy with our minds and make bets on how and when we'll die while entertaining themselves with our rape and misery. So the question always is the same, who isn't a nasty thing? I guess possibly their twisty eyed puppets that aren't trustworthy anyway because of the control that they're under, and I'm supposedly the same as them. Scary. Does anyone care about freedom anymore? Let's say hypothetically there is a few that aren't evil, who don't like manipulation, who aren't greedy, who let life live a free and normal life, how do I know who that is? What if there's two or three beings that truly aren't evil and are outnumbered by the greedy and selfish, how am I supposed to know? They all manipulate. I can't figure out why they clone themselves, it seems like many similar looking things are around that devour humanity and life, and I can't understand why they would recreate themselves that way. They've destroyed most of this world, and everything that's rebuilding seems empty, thoughtless, apathetic. I'm truly stuck between a rock and a hard place, not free enough, not brainwashed enough. They took away my womanhood, and even though I would never let children grow up around these things, they had no right to take my choices from me. I told this thing yesterday he manipulated me to go to the hospital that day, and I should be so angry that I should flip, but I'm not as evil as they are. I do wish them some karmic revenge though, that's me being honest, something they'll never be or seem capable of. The disgusting blue eyes they have, the sickness they seem to have, their twisty eyed creations that seem willing to do anything to life or others for them. They hurt me, I live with them, and I don't know who to trust. These two are evil. He's so disgusting, I'm sure when he saw I had my period he decided to end it, and that's why he's a perverse, cowardly, nutjob. He doesn't blink most of the time, he lies directly to my face without so much as a hint of conscience. They are empty, deceitful and cruel. I'm leaving at the end of this month, I want them to know what's it like to have choices taken from them, maybe he'll lose his little raisin balls the way he made me lose my feminine cycle. But I honestly don't believe he thinks or feels. He has no shame about lying to me or what he did to me and how he influenced me. He's empty. I think he saw my menstrual cycle when I was using tampons, and he put an end to it. I think he's a despicable, loveless creature that is incapable of introspecting about their cruel behavior and what they do to people, I think they both are. Anyone who makes those kind of attacks on people without their knowledge and consent, are psychopaths. They're truly evil. She's greed, he's a pathological liar. These things have constantly been hurting me and lying to me, I just don't understand how there can be more of them than normal people. I don't understand why they exist at all. They don't feel, no matter how much they say they do, they have no conscience about what they did to me. They made my toes look like theirs, but mine are all thin and weird near the bottom. Why would they make me seem like them when their intention was to hurt me all along? Long toes are evil, that's my conclusion. But not all of them have long toes now, and I'm sure most of them had dental surgery. Toronto General Hospital sterilized me somehow, and they all knew, it was all planned and I was manipulated. If they don't care, if they're so cruel as to do that to people, what is their worth in life, what social and moral values do they have? None. They think about self, and even though some are huge, they still only think about food and control and their own agenda. I should have a human lawyer and doctor to talk to about their abuses, but I see no one that seems to care. I truly am scared and lost. They're so evil. It doesn't matter how nice a person is to them, they're cruel. Anne Marie set me up and did something to me, and I was polite and kind to her when others were not. That's how little conscience or care they have. They only care about eating and owning a house apparently. Shiny blue eyes and redness in the face is another thing I can't trust. I technically can't trust any of them. I'm still waiting for a person to help me who has true emotions and the ability to be honest with me. It's really scary that considering everything that's happened to me throughout my life, how illegal and unfair and unjust it all is, there isn't anyone to call for help. Anything too stupid to understand that what they do to me is cruel and unjust, like this couple, seems so pointless. Where are the people who knew this behavior was illegal and a crime against humanity? Where are the people who believe in freedom and choice and life and free speech and respect? These disgusting things don't.
Lisa Hoffman
Fri. May 4, 2018 It's rainy and I woke up early. Something sneezed in the hallway and then some chicks were laughing. Thats what I awoke to. There's always intrusive and selfish things around me. That never changes. Things with no conscience watching me in my sleep, studying me like a guinea pig as usual. And my hand was sore so the idiots probably hurt me in my sleep by tensing certain muscles while they invade my thoughts. They're disgusting, but there's not much I can do if they don't face me like real men would. They're a cowardly race, they're all disgusting. Yesterday I felt I wanted to have,a few beers, play pool, and of course the emotions get heightened and I start feeling happier and even singing and dancing while the cars drove past in throngs again. Every day is a manipulation by these ugly, loveless things that find it amusing. I saw all the old lanky guys, the bulbous guts. There is nothing genuine about these things that manipulate us, and thanks to their manipulation, our own genuine integrity is compromised and mocked. I know I'm a play thing and a lab rat for monsters who could care less about my life. I get really tired of the strings attached to my life and head. The only thing I know for sure is one day people will figure out a way to free themselves or someone with morals and a true conscience will, and maybe one day people can be free of these evil things. Its been five months since I've had a menstrual cycle, all because these disgusting creatures think they're gods. They're assholes. They're the most cruel and sadistic things I could ever imagine. And they think of us as nothings, as puppets and tools, and they are emotionally vapid and cruel. It would be nice to know someone who understands things about life the way I do now, knowing I can't control every aspect of my mind, but knowing I have a good heart and resent their control and sadistic experiments, forced drugs and chemicals, perverse methods of science and twisted sense of life and lack of respect for freedom. They might be able to manipulate my days but every day I think how cruel they are for denying me a real life, real love and real freedom. You want to know how disgustingly contrived my life is? Yesterday the guy I was playing pool with went for pizza with me and at first tried to take the veggie slice and I told him, "Get what you'd normally get." Nothing is ever going to be real. Every male that tries to talk to me or know me is not the same as me. There might be aspects that are similar, like possibly mind manipulation, but otherwise none of them are capable of honesty. Nothing around me is a man the way I remember. When I was young, these things put me around their kids who bullied me or tried to breed me and humiliate me, but now that I'm older, everything is ugly and a liar. So maybe everything is the same, I'm just more aware of it now. Although the guy I talked to yesterday was nice, there's always a loneliness that comes from a lack of truth and a lack of closeness. Then every once in a while I have to hear the conversations of apathetic, self-righteous beings and accept the fact they don't care either. I have to accept the fact that everything and everyone around me knows what's happened, knows what's been done to me, knows I've been violated and don't get justice, and every once in a while hear an indirect or misdirected 'sorry' or an 'I know', even though none of them are civilized enough to explain or to verbally help with the injustices or to help me find legitimate help. None of these beings are beings that I'm accustomed to. This has mostly to do with my mom's 'handlers', doesn't it? The things that control my mom and her life, are the same disgusting things that hurt me most of my life. It was strange how a female at my mom's building said she didn't know my mom had a daughter, and shortly after that, everything fell apart. There was that lanky pale couple across from us when I was taken from my mom the second time. They've been abusing my mom and me most of our lives. I don't understand why they're so evil and empty, but they obviously have an uncontrollable vindictiveness inside themselves that they hide and play out through others. They hurt us within ourselves because they're too cowardly to confront and because they're emotionally immature. I'm sure jealousy is a huge reason I was hurt the way I was. They seem quiet, but they have inner ugliness that they sneakily reverse the blame and guilt onto those they manipulate. I think they're a horrible, jealous and cruel and perverse race. I think the same things that tortured my mom's life, carried on their vengeful hate into my life.I don't know how to get a break from it all. They don't feel enough to understand I shouldn't be with them and their slaves, I'm different. They don't care how lonely I am because they themselves lack normal emotions. I think my mom tried to have a free child, and because of that everything attacked me when they saw I was. Maybe its because they did to me what they do to others more later in life than usual that I became more aware of the struggle within my own mind. Maybe because I was lucky enough to understand the lack of love because I was loved when I was with my mom. Maybe everyone now has this affliction at birth. Maybe all those kids I saw being carted away in buses up north were taken from families, maybe because they raised places where children were free. Maybe that's another reason why they destroyed all those forests. It's truly a sad and deceitful world thanks to disgusting creatures like that, that would enslave and ruin families and destroy nature, all for the sake of control.
Lisa Hoffman
Fri. May 18, 2018 I was watching YouTube this morning, saw something on someone who was a yoga instructor, and it irritated me. There was a time when people were just active and didn't need self righteous things to teach people how to be active or motivated. They take away people's freedoms and motivations and happiness, and then have the audacity to seem like they are ones who give motivation and if it wasn't for them people wouldn't know what to do with themselves. Who's fault is that? Who encloses people in cities and takes away freedom of choice and thought? They do, then act as though they're better than everyone else. I was thinking about countries, people, how certain countries got smaller and smaller, how they dropped the bomb on a tiny nation, dropped napalm on a tiny nation. It's strange how the largest and most populated nations don't usually have bombs dropped on their people. It's sad how we have out privacy, dignity, freedoms taken away while phony philanthropists claim to do society good by contributing motivation that never used to be an issue when people were free, roamed free and were self sufficient. I'll never understand their desire for cages, both mental and physical. I'll never understand why they choose what they are, but most importantly, why they insist and force everyone to live their way. These disgusting things don't let me socialize with people like me or who think like me, I've been isolated and felt threatened for years now with no explanation ever given, but they sure seem to think they understand everything about society and social behavior. They're cruel. They are cruel to me every day. They have denied me real friendship most of my life. If I ever had a realistic opinion of society, most around me would accuse me of a negative attitude, and why, so everyone will complacently watch TV and live confined to cities and not be the free roaming people we have every right to be. Because to question society is to question the very beings who dictate our lives and ways we should live. The things that don't want us to think for ourselves. I've lived most of my life wondering why 'people' are shallow, apathetic, selfish and cruel. The answer is so simple and disappointing. Food and money and territory and power. That's why so many in this world don't care, don't care about our chains, our mental chains. People, life, nature and freedoms all suffer for greed and selfishness. I will never understand it. It seems to me almost everyone chose modern comforts and ignorance, or we were conditioned that way by things who have no shame or conscience and all for the reasons of food and power and territory. Emptiness, a lack of heart and understanding of real love, which is freedom, is why the world is so nasty, and I don't understand the reason something that empty and cruel would exist at all. Every day I have to accept that I get no explanation, no justice, no real conversation, no real companion, no real understanding, in a society that likes to claim itself to be civilized. These things raped and violated and abused many children and women and men, and this present day society has no care for words, acknowledgement, justice,or a voice for victims like me. Personally, I choose honesty and valor over denial and deliberate ignorance.
Lisa Hoffman
Sat. May 5, 2018 I woke up thinking about old bosses I've had for some reason. I realized how all of them were trying to make me look bad and abusive. There was a time I wrote about before, the dog I had to shave that had pink skin after, that supposedly my boss at the time saved the hair to show the owner how it was one big clump of matted mess. I realized about the time I accidentally gave a dog skin burn when I was brushing out a matt in it's hair, and my boss at Secord Animal Hospital, Lori, made a huge deal about it and started disinfecting the dog, and all her other weird behaviors. I've realized it's them that manipulates people's minds to forget or get frustrated, and at the same time they can manipulate animal minds to seem calmer around them, giving themselves the appearance of patience and kindness. Their abuses is done subtly and through the mind. Ever since I showed interest in working with animals it seems these creatures have created environments and instigated problems to keep me from having close dealings with them. It truly is a manwich, and I also thought about how people like my mom are almost never represented in pictures or even artwork. They almost don't seem to exist at all anymore. The Rusts, and most bosses have had agendas that seemed to be about studying and manipulating and accusing regular people of mental and temperament problems, whereas we went about our daily lives not understanding their sly and hidden ulterior motives. Not only did they manipulate us, they capitolized from our labours and misery, while giving us bad reputations and lying about who we are as people. Their abuses are done through our minds, subtly and deceitfully. They lie, and now they control animal's minds and seem loving, but they do not understand that love is truth and freedom, and they don't seem to want to acknowledge their influence on us and lies they've told about us. They hide their disgusting abusive and sadistic behaviors behind closed doors is true as and hide their true intentions and deviant personalities within themselves and project those perversions and hateful thoughts onto us, while publicly shaming us and publicly humiliating us. They are a coward race who only lies while making our lives seem derelict and as though we are the uncivilized. They are cruel. They are not man enough to confront or confess to what they are. Expecting truth from those creatures is pointless. Its better to understand their influence and know we were free and beautiful until their arrival, and now they tell the world they are civility and truth, they are civilized and yet they don't allow for free thought of anyone or anything. Every employment I ever had was them trying to justify to the world and each other and themselves how we were the evil in this world, meanwhile it was always them and their influence. They're a sadistic, cruel, cowardly race. They have for centuries obviously been marauding all over the world, killing people and life and controlling and enslaving everywhere they go, while accusing others of being lowlifes, ineffective members of society, derelicts, violent offenders, and most of the violence is a direct cause of their sadistic and twisted control and greed that they hide within themselves. They are cowards, they do cause people to hurt themselves, hurt each other, blame each other. I am convinced they cannot be honest due to a lack of moral and conscience and a vile, hidden personality disorder of vanity and greed and sadism. That's been the constant abusers in my life, overweight and mean and tall and lanky and manipulative and both sides were jealous and vindictive. They're hand in hand obviously. I don't know how they exist everyday knowing they've destroyed and enslaved most life, and walk around as though they're the most honest and upstanding citizens that ever existed. If anything I've read about history is true, they've always been that cruel and have always found excuses and justification for their evil and disgusting way of life. I don't care if they say one is animal eater, and the other is offal eaters, they're all abusive and nasty to people, regular people who most don't even know about the influence and spend their lives blaming themselves for mistakes or punishing themselves, while the disgusting things that influence and hurt us get richer or fatter or more powerful. Most around have been apathetic and or blind and misled, that's what I've understood about society now. They are so disgusting, they tore families apart, told lies, had people wrongfully imprisoned and ruined relationships and now are walking the planet and recreating communities where everyone will be apathetic and ignorant, but blissfully happy as long as the breed and continue this life in ignorance. It's the people they abuse that never get a voice or acknowledgement or justice. What they've done to me is despicable and heartless and there isn't anyone among who is intellectual, mature or loving enough to help. They stopped my menstrual cycle after that twisty eyed, fangy female nurse or whatever she was at Toronto General Hospital did something to me. On Dec 14, 2017, I went to the hospital to get a PAP for a feminine problem that developed after I was drugged at a show and then terrorized. She used something that wasn't the regular swab and I was on a full menstrual cycle when I visited them, now I haven't had a period since. They didn't even acknowledge the feminine problem I had, and I was only acknowledged after I went to a walk-in clinic and they supposedly medicated me for a made up disorder that I know has something to do with these ugly creatures that drugged me at that show, terrorized me since. They are evil. They are cruel, sadistic evil things and no one will help me get truth or justice. I think these disgusting things that are around me and I live with are the influence that caused me to go tobyhe hospital that day and be violated yet again by supposed health care professionals. They're all disgusting creatures. Two males came on the intercom in the room and were laughing after the exam, now I know, they are cowardly, ugly things that always abuse women and are vengeful because people fought back, and they don't like that. They're an evil, ugly, cowardly, cruel and deceitful race, and most of them are going yo get sick again to go along with their sick heads and sick behavior and sick crimes they commit against people like me.
Lisa Hoffman
Mon. Apr. 23, 2018 Stayed in most of the morning playing video games, still pissed off about all the nasty things these things do, and don't have the decency to be honest about it. I went to the park/garbage dump again and had four beers bd listened to music and played some guitar. I recorded a few videos but I was brain stunned again. I made a comment about how boring these things are, but when I recorded later I happened to say "bored guys" instead of "boring guys" and when telling the story about how this thing I lived with had a tantrum about how I played his 'tabla' (is what he calls his bongos), like bongos I said he "left the room" instead of "left the apartment". Lots of minute mistakes that make huge differences when I tell stories about what has happened to me or experiences I've had since my life fell apart. It pisses me off but at the same time nothing around me is honest so the small word mistakes I make aren't nearly as nasty as the deliberate and purposeful lies these things tell. They don't tell me why I feel threatened. They don't tell me how I'm used or why. No one will even acknowledge any of the nasty things they've done to me these last several years. And they're still changing words as I write. On the way to the liquor store, two things were sweeping outside on purpose at the same time and sweeping dirt or salt on the sidewalk at me, and one only pretended to stop as I passed by, the other pretended not to notice me, so I spat in their direction. On the way back an asshole got out of a city truck and started to spray a garbage bin and sprayed me, so I spat at him too. I'm alone, getting treated like total shit by ignorant and nasty things who don't have the balls or human decency to say anything to my face. They're fucking cowards! I feel like no one around has any decency, no morals and no human emotions. They don't seem to even have any care about anything. I guess that's how they get the jobs they have, by shitting on my life and being idiots. Everyday I wish I could shove this world down their selfish and greedy throats. At least I'm not them. I wouldn't purposely be a dick like they're being. Real men don't exist anymore. I think alot of them are too stupid to confront. I think most of them get offered jobs and houses and their existence by shitting on this world and myself. I guess that's what I have to contend with now. No one seems intelligent enough to not be assholes. They still won't even acknowledge what the hell they did to me at the hospital that stopped my menstrual cycle. It's illegal what they're doing to me, but they've been cruel to me all my life, so I shouldn't expect any different. They're not what humans should be or what humans used to be. I can be manipulated, but I would never go out of my way to be deliberately nasty to anyone, until they ruined my life and started hurting me more and more. Now I have to stand up for myself and defend myself against these idiots, because no one is helping me.
Lisa Hoffman
Fri. May 25, 2018 I was just reading some past journals and they've again changed certain words again. I think I've had people listening to me for a long time, and if I was honest they wouldn't be known for not being mind invasive. But if I was ever dishonest is when there was a possibility those who couldn't read my mind would get caught. So who could really read my mind? Well, even if Mrs. Rust heard me take gum from another kid, she couldn't have known I hid it under my pillow, and she punished me in the cruelest way for it. She's with out a doubt, evil. Dave was a chronic liar, but he could've been testing me to see what I'd believe, if I knew or not. Julian told me he couldn't read minds, he accused me of lying when I wasn't once or twice, but he could've been pretending. I've realized if I feel good about myself, usually the next day or shortly after something will come along and try to hurt me. Whatever's in my head is usually very nasty and jealous. Ross is for sure. Then there's those who I think are forced to tell what others think to someone who's nasty, and if we tell the truth and they lied, they get in trouble. Mrs. Rust was cruel most of the time, and rich. I don't think she was ever cohersed or threatened in any way. I think she was constantly threatening me to whoever was listening, or making me seem bad and unruly to whoever was listening. If I didn't speak out she could say anything, anyone could and those who only heard me would never be the wiser. Like how this thing I live with said when I first moved in about having to clean up a mess on the balcony, but there wasn't one, and even said something about pill bottles. So these things lie to whoever listens, and they influence and manipulate. So blue eyes are not really trustworthy, as far as when they're around me. It's inhuman eyes that can't be trusted. There are those who won't say anything to me, others who lie about me (mostly blue and green and red eyes). I'm not sure who listens, but they would have to trust in me, because almost everything around me lies about me. And this is why no one cares to talk to  me directly. Even though I deserve answers and don't deserve to be used the way I was, I most likely will never be told the truth. And whatever's in my head doesn't like me feeling good about myself at all. If I have one day where I think my ass looks good, the next day will be a bunch of chicks who either show their asses or draw my attention to their asses, because apparently whatever's iny head thinks if I like something about myself I'm vain, without acknowledging the hypocrisy of being so vain they think they have the right to judge others thoughts and invade their minds. My theory is someone got a hold of one of these things and forced them to tell me the truth. And ever since, they've been threatening me and my health and threatening to blow my mind. It makes me feel sad that in order for me to know the truth someone had to resort to desperate measures. But now I know. So since its been a battle of truth and manipulation. And I'm back to the same problem of knowing I want to know those who can't read my mind, but enslaved by and slowly killed by those who can. Alex apparently wrote the lyrics to 'Misanthropy' , "What's going on inside my head... Etc." but then I wrote most of the 'evil' sounding stuff. Reversing the blame. He could sit in front of me and laugh sometimes when I was distraught. Other times he seemed so sincere. It's those that lie to me and around me that are trying to blame me for something. They are obviously trying to convince those who don't see. Honestly, most of the time all I want is to be left alone now and have at least something to hug before these mind manipulators end my life. They are truly evil. Maybe that's why really fat things were lying and saying they're starving or they need to eat. Hopefully those that listen to that know how deceitful they are. When that bulbous and nasty thing in Sturgeon Falls said "Don't try something like that again, man!", he wasn't talking to me, he was talking to my ears. And that's why now they walk around me and pretend to be my ears and point at their ears or wear headphones, and they're not human, they're mostly manipulators. These things threaten me to my own ears, and expect  me to listen. That's why these disgusting things turn off my music now when I walk. I don't care to be their go-between anymore. They have no care or respect for me or my life, never have. I wish I could know a real man with real feelings, but all I see is manipulators and their slaves who believe them. They truly are an evil race. They're so disgusting they're using  me and always have been to help themselves. They're killing me to hurt others. There's nothing noble or honorable or brave about these things at all. They're opportunistic, lowlife, selfish scumbags. I had nothing to do with anything, but they don't care. Ross seemed to already know about the fact little teenagers beat on me, so it's safe to assume he had something to do with it. A race that bullies and hurts innocent people to survive. That's the extent of their greatness. There's nothing about them that has any kind or honest or noble traits. There are animals with more nobility than these things that leech off my life and slowly kill me. At least I'm not them.
Lisa Hoffman
Tues. Apr. 24, 2018 You know how they say it's lonely being at the top? That's bullshit. The elites have each other and are happy in their roles in society. The middle class have each other and are happy in their roles in society, and the monsters are always happy as long as they control everyone else and devour life. Every day I think how cruel everyone is. They all deny me my own life and friendship. No matter what I do, something or someone will always use me. For every person who doesn't have mental freedom, they almost always find their niche in society. I never do. Every day they try to convince me they're all people and I'm not. And I'll always know since I was a little girl, even though they had done something to my mind and I didn't know it, I always knew something was wrong with the world. I always was outcastes and mostly hated, but I think that's because everyday I'd question why I or others would do what they do or live how they live. The frustrating and cruel reality of my life, is almost no one else thinks or felt like me. And I guess because I had no one else I became an easy target for any pervert or deviant to use me and abuse me. I still think they all deserve each other. They also sometimes seem to claim I always repeat myself and my opinions, but why is that really? Is it because they continually repeat their behavior and my opinion stays mostly the same about how they're behaving? That's my opinion. I've written about these experiences over and over again, just as many old people would repeat stories of their youth. I've repeated opinions over and over again, because some things never change their behavior and my frustration and disgust at everything's behavior never changes. I have no one to talk to, I have no one to share stories with or to tell about all the disgusting and horrible experiences I've had throughout my life. I don't understand why those I shared stories and opinions with before became completely different and mean and started lying about me. I've talked about their competitive behavior before. I've probably even challenged them to take a bigger shit than I have before. But their competitive and ridiculous behavior is why I find myself repeating the same opinions and bitching the same as I have in the past. I understand no one is free, except for those who are at the top of this horrible 'life pyramid', but I can't understand why others choose to be assholes. If I could find one person who was genuine, I'd never betray them as I was. I've learned though that my mistrust of the guys I've ever been with or Alex was legitimate and deserved. No one came into my life with honest and true intentions. Everyone was either an actor or a opportunist or a thing with no care for life at all. Regardless to the fact they denied me real love all my life, I still know love exists, real love can exist, it's these monsters who manipulate minds and control our existence that makes it almost impossible for us to have true love, but just because they destroy and manipulate and deny love, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. It simply means society is less and less human and more and more them. That's another thing I've realized. Historical accounts of white 'men' and tall lanky beings is almost always artwork or supposed 'artifacts', but when photography was developed there was documented proof of how dark-skinned people were being enslaved and now almost none exist as they did. It's true that most are a mix or hybrid of those things that invade and enslave. No one wants to acknowledge or even accept that fact. These bulbous things are not people, even if they have dark skin and round faces and smaller feet. People were never shaped like that. What I know is most humans never got fat, most humans were never greedy like 'people' are these days. My guess is almost anyone with genuine brown eyes, not the speckled brown eyes I see sometimes or the black eyes I see sometimes, are enslaved and toys or tools for these monsters who are now the majority of the world and the majority doesn't care for truth, acknowledgement or real justice. There's nothing I can do about how the majority are selfish liars, all I can do is try to love myself, understand why my past was so cruel and abusive and appreciate the fact I was more human than most. It is a really lonely life though. I know that Garnet, my supposed grandfather is one of those things, and since my life fell apart, these things are all they've let me live with. They are Nazis, they are pale, machine-mentality invaders that for whatever reason want everyone to be the loveless machines they are. I'll never understand why they do that to others but even more so, why they do it to themselves. It's basically that they destroyed all life and almost everyone living in this world now is a hybrid of their disgusting laboratory creations, or results from a loveless pairing of human with hybrid or monster. It's really disgusting. And even though I know the truth, there's no one sane enough or free enough to care, while these loveless things and their brainwashed lackeys all gang up on me and essentially destroy everything about me, including my right to have a menstrual cycle. They're all sadistic, cruel, loveless disgusting things, and I have no one. As I was writing today twice at least someone changed the word 'even' to 'eve.'. So I went on YouTube and posted this: The very idea of god is an oxymoron. In order to be the ultimate supreme being one would have to be all loving, believe in freedom, free will and have enough inner love to believe in equality and respect for life, therefore if anyone was even offered a 'role' of being a god, they would politely decline because of self respect and respect of others. The idea of being supreme to anyone else already indicates an ego and selfishness that anyone who would be a god couldn't have to be the supreme being. There are those who believe in Adam's and Eve's, who become a part of the machine that eternally feeds. Then there are those who are more like me, and struggle to hold onto the last vestiges of their own humanity. I will also add this: There are beings in this world that are greedy and selfish and cruel. No one in their right mind would create them. And no one who was all loving could possibly love them.
Lisa Hoffman
Mon. May 28, 2018 Tidied the apartments today. Watched a few videos on YouTube. It's really unfair that the very things that tore my family apart and denied me love are what is in my mind. It's strange that I might live and die never knowing who I really am and who my parents really were. I might wait one more month even though I don't think it's wise. I have few choices. If I was financially independent, I would be far away from everyone and maybe everyone except the monsters would be happy. It freaks me out when I see the state of the world and I see those having babies, and wonder how can they? How can they perpetuate this evil system of child abuse and child theft and mind control and murder? Why do they? The snakes eating at their own tail. It's really creepy. Once when I was sitting on my porch I saw a spider eating little spiderlings, and I was disturbed because I've never seen s spider behave that way. Now I think it was a message. I think the constant message was about the snakes eating their own young, breeding their own food. Lady sensible was right, this world is becoming less and less human, and I don't know what to do about it. I've written before about how Pauline died and it was not suicide or an accident as far as I'm concerned. Sometimes I write about the reasons being meat and money, as though they're seperate problems, but I've realized before it can be synonymous motivation for these bulbous things. Pauline got life insurance before she died for her children, but then one child went to the Rusts and the other child went to CAS. Thats what they told me anyway. Kids that go to CAS become victims, that much I'm sure of, I strongly suggest for any woman who's with a bulbous thing to never get life insurance as I believe it is a reason for those things to end women's lives. That or since these things do manipulate minds, perhaps they manipulate women to get life insurance. I told my mother not to, and events have been horrible and getting worse since Pauline died, since I told my mom not to bother. They wouldn't even let my mom get most of the money Chuck left to her. And that's another reason why these disgusting things that aren't even my species have been hitting on me. They think every single woman is a money maker and I think they're the most grotesque things I could imagine. I want to know a real man. Some of these idiot females are hating on me and I'm trying to tell them their lives and children could be in danger with these nasty things. And they make it seem as though our choice is  between the tall snakes or the short fat ones, when the truth is they don't let us know each other. And neither one of them speak of or care about the destruction of nature or what's happening outside this city. That is very unsettling and disturbing. They have most of the slaves and brainwashed people convinced they're seperate entities and one protects while the other is destroying and it's a lie. It's common sense, if they don't care there's a reason for that. If they're reversing the blame on me there's a reason for that also. These blind women who don't know will find out when its too late, and the ones that do know are evil. I'm going out today and having a couple of beers and these things will likely drive around me and try to accuse me of being a drunk. However these things can get away with murder, control, rape and deceit, is what they'll do, including taking any opportunity they can to discredit my truth and what i m trying to say about what I saw and know by making me seem like a drunk or crazy. Sometimes I'm too alone to know what to do with myself anymore. It's not like I have anyone human to talk to or who understands and knows the truth the way I do.
Lisa Hoffman
Thurs. June 1, 2018 Yesterday I bought some weed to have something to chill with. After I offered the guy to have a beer with me, but he started smoking crack in front of me, again like others have, so I left. Last night I started to get itchy. I think they're lacing everything with the same crap that's in the lawns that I sit on and get instantly itchy when I never did before. I'm not allergic to nature, I'm allergic to whatever chemical these things are spraying and I think they started lacing booze and weed and harder drugs with that crap. Maybe that weird and disturbing movie, 'Naked Lunch' is more real than I realized. Regardless to anything, these things have been hurting me all my life with other petty behavior, like jealousy and deforming me. Its because they're mind invasive and privacy intrusive that they're able to make judgements on my own thoughts and get jealous and cruel and do evil things like deform me. I stand by my theory that they're a hateful race, even if I am half, which I still have my doubts about. I have my mother's words that I remember, and other hints that I may be more human than these things want me to believe. I have to say though, my feet do look really long. I was listening to my music yesterday and realized they changed yet another honest lyric which is really starting to piss me off. They changed the lyric, "Don't trust a plastic beak" to "Don't trust a plastic beat" which doesn't even make sense. And I forget what it was I was listening to but they blatantly changed another honest lyrical advice to something ridiculous and a total lie. It is the same things that have always been around me hurting me that as still hurting me, while seeming to say the truth in their indirect and insinuated ways. My life is so boring abs lonely though that it would be nice if I could have a beer and toke without being poisoned. Technically, I don't think there's much in this world they sell to people that isn't poison anymore. I also stopped at two Tim Horton's and got coffee and a bagel from one place. Anything could be poison.
Lisa Hoffman
Thurs. Apr. 26, 2018 I wrote about my horrible experience in Midland last night and about the poisoned waters I saw all over this country. But honestly they've been doing that all this century. I mentioned how, to that Roy guy who was coincidentally sitting on a bench when I went shopping the other day, that lake Erie was a mess when I was a kid. There's a nihilistic side of me now that realizes considering what we are, how these things treat life eternally, it kind of doesn't matter, but it probably is those waters that protected people from these ravenous beings. There are those disgusting things that devour us that use this world as a restaurant, there are their hybrid mind controlled children, which is what I was supposed to be supposedly, but somewhere is a race that cares about what these disgusting things are. These things are shameless and demented and eternally liars, but how they manipulated people and accuse people of lies is their ultimate cruelty and cowardice. Maybe some of them taught and told their own 'children' to destroy nature, and then maybe they even turned on them and blamed them. For as long as there is nasty things that control and devour, there are others who fight, and the result seems to be the constant destruction of people and nature. It's strange how I can be manipulated to walk or sit around, but so far none of them will convince me they're anything but selfish, greedy, ravenous monsters who use mind control to feed and satisfy themselves because they're ugly and cowardly. The unfortunate part is how I'm stuck around them, with them, manipulated by them and how they seem insistent on ruining my reputation and credibility. Cowardly things that use cowardly tactics, I guess that will remain constant about their race. At least I try to hold onto whatever integrity I can, even if they manipulate aspects of what I say. What I should've said yesterday is I'm pretty sure I was violated. It really was all contrived. If I wasn't, I wouldn't have developed feminine problems, nor had that weird and manipulated conversation with Alex outside about how I felt passed around. That's the only way they can make me seem like a liar. By miswording what I mean to say, or confusing me momentarily. Whatever cowardly tactics they use, I'm not a liar. They seem to want to justify every disgusting thing they've done to me by making me seem confused or dishonest or addicted to substances I'm not, or by demonizing me to make it seem I deserve it. They're all disgusting creatures. And I still say they are a loveless and terrible and cruel and perverse race who have destroyed the very foundations and true meaning of love. And they still won't even let me write without changing every other word. That's why they stopped making most phones with keyboards I guess. I feel really alone in my opinions, ostracized and denied justice and condescended to with a false and phony pretense of understanding and care. It's simple, I've said it many times, if anyone cared about justice they would confront me, they would verbalize to me and they would know I deserve truth and justice for every disgusting and nasty thing ever done to me. These disgusting things have no clue about love, never have and never will. They've learned to manipulate, recreate conditions and feelings that are momentary and shallow. They don't know what love is because their sole purpose is to get fat and bulbous with the suffering of others. I don't understand the point of the machine that eternally feeds, I dont understand how the elites who know can support them and perpetually create the illusions and lies. I don't know how the majority of the medical community, the entertainment community and government that is obviously phony and meant to distract from reality can live with themselves. The world has become a horrible and selfish place, where most only seem interested in gratifying themselves, or convincing others who are dissatisfied that they care, when they so obviously don't. Welcome to the new age of existence. That's a lyric or a quote from something, I understand it now. I've realized for almost every bulbous inhuman thing is a manipulated and controlled 'child' of theirs, and most of them seem to hate me. It's always going to be the words of truth that my mother told me that will matter to me, but their cruelty of denying me a mother all my life, is how loveless and inhuman they'll always be. I don't care who these disgusting things are trying to convince I'm a liar, or crazy or deserved the injustices of my life, they're lowlife, cowardly disgusting things that wouldn't know how to be honest if their lives depended on it, which is funny, because technically they do depend on lies and deceit. I'm getting old, I'm still being lied to, blamed, used and harassed, and I'm still alone, so all I have is those small moments to myself where I talk to myself, listen to music, and imagine what it would be like to talk to a real and honest and kind man. I'm so disgusted by these things, I'm very lonely. I guess these things have been separating child from mother for a long time, tell us lies about our mothers and try to recruit us into their loveless intentions. I remember that about one of my visits eutg my mom. Sgexsaid they'd say bad things about her and about me and to not believe them. That we are people and they are not. I've written before how they took that memory from me, and that could've been the one memory that gave me strength when I was being abused by very nasty and selfish nonhuman things. But at least I remembered and I was able to remember a moment when I was truly loved. Its been almost forty years since of not being loved and being used and abused. It makes me feel good though sometimes thinking about her then and knowing I we really were more human than most. How these disgusting things try to say they are emotions and thoughts now, and the one thing I've learned about what they are, is they are hinderance on my thoughts, memories, talents, happiness and even motivation. Some of it is chemicals I'm sure, some is manipulation, but most of it is their cruelty and lack of humanity and kindness, a lack of companionship that causes my inert sadness or quietness. If I had a companion or real friend, I'd never stop talking, and these manipulative cowards know that, that's why they isolate me. When I was married and had my pets, I laughed and talked everyday, or cried and questioned or reminisced. Now I do nothing but inwardly feel those emotions and have those thoughts with no one to share them with. These things are a cruel and sadistic race.
Lisa Hoffman
Sat. June 2, 2018 I'm covered in a rash now. Whoever did this to me, did this about a week ago. I was thinking something cruel smashed into something protective, but now I think that they're hurting people elsewhere and they might've smashed into something cruel. If they are purposely creating retarded people, and they are living elsewhere, some are brainwashed to believe they're loved and can be dangerous, yet are probably abused, and some are born to be abused and murdered and are trying to fight back. It's cruel to grow people and abuse people and purposely retard their minds. They're constantly abusing life. They mess with life everywhere they are. I don't understand how a lifeform can be so terrible to others. They're cruel and horrible to life somewhere unseen, they're cruel and horrible to people on earth, they're cruel and horrible to nature, and believe they're creators. I suppose that's the ultimate truth. It's true they create soldiers, they create killers, they create breeders and they mess with children and their minds. I'm afraid the busload of Asians I saw might have been going to die when I was crossing Canada, but maybe they were supposed to be witnesses. I don't trust what horrors these things are capable of. I don't know what to do, I'm a victim, they're victims, but I feel they're more dangerous to me personally, and then there's the ones who want to harm me because I'm their food and because I'm a witness and aware of what they are. I think little people like my mom are the ones who are most abused, I think the shorter, bulbous things can be either killers or breeders and have the potential to be animal or people eaters, and I think the long lanky bulbous things created slaves out of people and made the hybrid children as servants and are mostly offal eaters, and I think they kill children. I also believe they killed off most of real mankind a long time ago. They're all potentially dangerous. If a female can feed me laxatives in coffee and someone else deliberately makes people sick for reasons of revenge or simply to eat, I'm living in a world that is dangerous for me. I'm not like anyone left in this world, but I'm closest to my mom, even if we're not really related or even if we don't see each other anymore. It was always her that was the most nervous and scared and bullied throughout her life. These things that do that to people, they're heartless. They seem to really bully the most defenseless and smaller, just as animals sometimes do in the wild. But I know the most dangerous is the ones who manipulate minds as they passively-aggressively play out their sick fantasies or inner seething hatred through others. I believe they are the most cowardly race. They speak through animals and people and their created 'children', but they are not mutes, they are deferring blame onto others. They don't physically attack us, they incite others, or cause us to hurt ourselves. Its the most cowardly and cruel and sadistic and psychotic behavior I could ever imagine. And throughout all of my life I have been subjected to their mentality with no explanation or justification. Their artwork is mostly lies, and self-pitying. The picture I drew that I used as the album cover, of them suffering because of water, I didn't draw the full picture of how people suffer, except for on the mountain. Of course I'm on the side of the little people who are defenseless, and yet I'm one of them and can't even help myself. I don't trust in nor want to rely upon the manipulations and lies of those who say they're not the same, when they are so obviously starting the cycle of abuse again. I've only lived my lifetime, but my guess is they get more and more terrible with every generation. I think one of those disgusting creatures puts their sights on me and then manipulates others around me to become more and more mean or dangerousl. I think that thing that said my dog attacked him at the bookstore was one of them, and possibly even my boss. I think they target who they personally resent and then tell their children or manipulate others to think we're evil and deserve to be hurt. They use religion as a form of control and justification, and that's why they tried to make me seem like an evil witch. They're psychotic, they're silent killers and they're good at being deceitful. So some are dangerous because they don't know better, and some are dangerous because they are bred to kill. I don't know what to do. The only thing I know is lady sensible was right, this world is less and less human.
Lisa Hoffman
Fri. June 22, 2018 Yesterday I went out to the park and met up with that Gary guy from the beer store. I'm wondering if no one is allowed to think for themselves, how are we ever supposed to have real relationships? I don't know why these things live vicariously through us, why they choose to control others on the level that they do. We're like a joke to them. A bunch of toys, throw always. What are they? They seem like recreations of themselves. I know Alex was an actor so he could've deliberately changed his behavior, but some seem more effeminate at times, sometimes agitated, do we ever get to be ourselves? I have so many questions. Was Alex controlled by his parents and those around us? Why did Alex cut himself the way he did? It's strange to sit in the park by the house where I was abused, deformed, and see all these things around me who were probably the same things responsible. They don't have to respect anything if they don't want to, they don't respect people, especially people of colour. I'm sure that women like me are only respected as long as we don't stand up for ourselves or mouth off to them. That's probably why I lost everything at the age I did. They probably never cared whether I lived or died which is why I probably smoked as many cigarettes as I always have, was scarred as badly as I was. I think it's pathetic they hang around us and toy with us the way they do. I honestly think this caste society is ridiculous. I'll always hope mankind can defend themselves against whatever twisted agenda these things have. They are not a better or more superior race than me to decide how I should live. Whatever is happening these days, it's not my king, it's not my government, it's not my god, therefore I refuse to choose a caste and be okay with this. I have a voice and regardless to what any heartless, loveless thing thinks, I'm not here to serve them, I'm not a whore, I'm not a baby maker, I would've worked for the improvement of my own life and friends, but I'm not a slave, or at least don't intend to be. If enslaving minds is their way of control, they should feel ashamed and sorry for themselves. I think it's very immature and selfish and not behavior of a worthy race. The fear of a mind's potential, of a free man's potential, is a sign of cowardice whether they are willing to acknowledge it or not. I guess all I can do these days, is try to deal with my own mind, as well as survive, and hope one day I'll be able to feel appreciated again. I should mention that although there are things I observe that could be setup scenarios, I saw something disturbing yesterday, at least disturbing to myself. I saw a young black girl doing yardwork, dressed almost like a dancer from a hip hop video. It made me a little sad, but I never know what's real these days. Maybe it's the neighbourhood young, attractive people live in unless we piss them off and then they abuse us. I don't appreciate feeling judged and watched by things that have no understanding of the merits and progress of self thinking, free men. It's as though they regard me as a potential breeder and test my skills at being around children. Things that influenced children to molest each other when we were kids are judging my abilities and morals? Hah! I understand they're dangerous, I understand they are putting value on my existence as they hypocritically exist as a mindless collective that passive-aggressively attacks our human existence. I will not be judged by things that have abused and manipulated my entire life. They might feel superior to me, but I know they blame victims of their mental abuse and control with actions that are directly influenced by these things that harbour their own inward perversions and hatred and play them out with human puppets that always suffer and take the blame. If they see my life as worthless because I won't have children for them, or slave for them, or sleep with ugly, then it's only equal to the pointlessness and emptiness of having to rule over others who are controlled, that I see in them. When these things progress to be a self reliant, respectable race that can exist without cruel slavery and control of others, then they can consider themselves a progressive race, until then, they're nothing more than invaders and tyrants as far as I'm concerned. The usefulness and worth of a race can be judged from all sides. That's what these vain and domineering things should realize. As a human, I would choose the progress of a self-reliant, moral, loving and personable race over a heartless, domineering, selfish race, but obviously they don't see it that way. I still think they barely can love. In other words, I'll judge myself, and you things can hopefully learn the value of honour. The opinions of slave using, mind manipulating, collective thinking is not what matters to me, love and kindness and conversation is what's important to myself. There was a time when real men existed who would be disgusted by the way women are treated these days. There was a time when rape was considered the worst crime, and now these things don't even let us talk about it. They're not willing to acknowledge mind control, and if they're not willing to acknowledge mind control, then they're not going to acknowledge the rape and abuse that people suffer because of their control and influence, and if they're not willing to accept responsibility for their influence, then they are cowards whose actions are as mature and responsible as a small child. They live their entire existence blaming others for their own actions. I don't see the superiority in that behavior. In other words, they might be able to influence me to walk into anything, be a fool, manipulate certain emotions, but deep down inside myself I always remind myself it is the influence of a faceless and immature coward who pleasures in toying with people and aren't man enough to confront and conversate as real people would. Real men would never want a woman by force or influence, and real men knew the merits of love and companionship over the cold and callous mentality that women are merely wombs and servants to boring and loveless males.
Lisa Hoffman
Wed. June 20, 2018 Yesterday and today these things around me are behaving phony. Yesterday the thing I live with said he cared again, said I could stay longer, offered to help me with twenty dollars. Why? Usually they're idiots and instigating me. Today I went to the grocery store and the clerk that accused me of handing a bill to her that was ripped that she actually handed to me first, apologized. Why? Who's looking? Certain days these things act as though they're civilized, and other days they don't bother. I ask who they're trying to impress often, but I'm guessing their idiot audience who doesn't believe they're as disgusting and perverse as they truly are. They isolate me for years and then occasionally send a stranger my way to make it seem I'm having fun and being treated nicely. They're despicable things, no shame. My moment of clarity this morning was thinking about all the actors in my life and relationships that were phony and realized I was always a show for a bunch of deviants and idiots. There are real people in this world who know better than to believe these things and their lies and phony behavior. There are real people that know these things aren't nice, aren't honest and treat us like garbage. We live here and get watched and abused without knowing, while pampered idiots try to make us seem like derelicts and liars. That will never end. It's simply their slaughterhouse, and for whatever sick, demented reason they pleasure in watching us. I guess only humans understand the merits of privacy and respect and true love. All I need is a real friend, and all these disgusting things do is try to set me up with things that have no respect for me whatsoever. There's an audience that's somewhere watching people die and go crazy and get raped, and they're watching the world get destroyed and rebuilt in their demented image and design. And most of them are absolutely disgusting and cruel and sadistic and perverse. That's the reality. Sometimes in my word choice screen someone writes 'cruel, stupid, they'. I understand that's the case for a lot of them, but my doctor who looked me in the face and said it was normal for my breasts to deform overnight is an uneducated idiot with cruel tendencies? I doubt that the doctors are as stupid as most, but equally if not more cruel. It's the educated and educators that design this lie and illusion of a world. There's less honesty in the medical community than an auction filled with lawyers would be. For every accusation a doctor made to me about having a bad attitude or questioning their knowledge, was a hypocritical asshole lying to my face and reversing the guilt and blame, which seems to be a regular occurrence in my life and experiences. The cruelty of idiots is only another cruel aspect of my life. I'm not saying I'm a perfect person, but deliberately hurting others the way I was hurt, I would never do. Yesterday I was walking and thinking again how this world is way more screwed up than I could've ever imagined.
Lisa Hoffman
Wed. June 13, 2018 I decided to go out and have two beers. As I was walking, the thing I live with was across the street waving at me, so I decided to be as phony as he is and over-emote my delight at seeing him. I don't know how he lives with himself. He's looked me in the face and said he has nothing but concern about me and hopes that I have comfort, but has locked me out on the balcony with the stove on, has purposely poisoned my food and I know it. He knows they go through my belongings and he knows more than he acknowledges and he'll look me in the face and boldface lie to me with no sign of shame. He's a disgusting creature with no conscience and no right to even be a male considering he has no real man qualities. I'm totally disgusted by every male around me. Two males were crossing their arms over their chests, gesturing again, so I decided to emulate them and add a stomping foot to show them how retarded they look and behave. They're too stupid to care. I'm very frustrated. These things are all around with new trucks, some have mind raped female companions, and they're too stupid to think or care about that. They have dicks, but I don't know why. They're not men at all. They lie, they rape, they eat, they take, they teach their stupid children the same mentality, then they gesture when they want to purvey a point, when most normal humans would speak. I've said many tines lately, they only use their mouths to eat or insult, but are never man enough to explain or confront. Maybe, since their race doesn't believe in words, they can eventually develop a suction cup where their mouths should be, since fucking and food and vehicles are their only concern. I was given lips to talk with and to kiss with, and these sacks of shit don't allow me to do either anymore. I'm tired of looking at these things whose stomachs begin at their genitals and end in their chests where their hearts should be. I recorded another few videos and the first ones wouldn't save, then the last video saved but now I watched it and I swear I have more flaws added, cause apparently my scars aren't enough humiliation and abuse for these idiots on my phone and hacking into any e-mail service I use. These disgusting things will never be happy or satisfied or honest. They have such animosity and hatred and jealousy and have abused me most of my life,and to this day have not been man enough or even mature enough to confront. They've humiliated and abused me sexually and physically and mentally since I was a child, and not one of these cowards has said why, or given a reasonable explanation. There are guys I knew that would talk, that would care and some would even share their own experiences being in this system that sacrifices what these stupid things consider trash. The strange thing is the ones who are the trashiest all have new trucks and homes and none of them talk about what's happened. All I need to know is one kind and caring person, and all these disgusting things around me won't allow it. I'm still not sure where real people are. Like I said, things that were supposed friends since I was fifteen years old turned out not to be, and they apparently aren't even human. Not even one civilized answer or explanation. There's lots of news footage of social gatherings, there's lots of videos on YouTube of social gatherings, no one talks about what happened. Why have I been constantly hurt, attacked and abused. Who is deriving pleasure from scarring me and deforming me? Who's the cowards that keep facelessly hurting me and will they ever be man enough to confront? What the fuck is wrong with their heads and mentality? Why is it that the whole country's been ruined, and these things have brand new trucks and drive around like nothing's wrong? Why the fuck did my husband and his buddies and others around me defile me, gave me a vd and I'm not even promiscuous, then tossed me away like a piece of trash? What kind of monster did I marry that would do what they did to me? Why did fat and bulbous things harass me and try to make me seem like a whore and drug addict? Why do these disgusting things try to humiliate and ruin my reputation? Why are they seeming to try and blame me for what they've obviously gained from, which is the destruction of the forests and lakes? I'm not rich, I'm not comfortable, I almost never have been. I'm not greedy, I wasn't selfish, I didn't hurt anyone, I don't deliberately use anyone the way I've been taken advantage of. I don't kill things, I don't run around trying to steal from others, or bully others. Why is it all these disgusting things around me have mostly been evil? Do you have any idea how many children these things have molested and how many minds are abused because of this technology? Do you know how disgusting it is to control a female to sleep with someone or to smoke themselves to death, or to manipulate someone to hurt someone else because the things that control others are faceless cowards? They cause wars, they cause addictions and then tell others the technology is imperative for survival and communication, which is total bullshit! These things make people kill each other, these things control females and then pit them against each other. These things that control and manipulate are mostly perverts, opportunists, cowardly murderers and themselves have very little emotion or conscience. Then they walk around as though they're superior or civilized or justified, as if controlling someone else's thoughts and destiny is their right. Who the hell thinks they have the right to manipulate and control others? Who the hell still uses slavery but is too balless to acknowledge that they do? Besides my foster family and phony family. Who the fuck in their right mind still thinks slavery is acceptable? Most of these disgusting things, only their own vanity won't let them confess to the fact that they do, that's how disgusting they are. They use their powers of control to rape and mock me. What the hell kind of disgusting creature that does that thinks they're better than I am when I would never do that to anything? That's my personal position on this subject of control and manipulation, and I stand by my opinion that they're cowardly. Anyone who thinks they have the right to invade another's privacy and destroy their lives is beneath me in all respects, yet aren't even man enough to tell me that's what they think of me and that's what they do. I see what manipulates me and hear their cowardly lies, their phony behavior. This thing I live with today is behaving nice, but he does hurt me indirectly and underhandedly. These things that don't confront have no right to feel superior to me in any way. I deserve answers, I deserve truth. I deserve to know why Alex was even with me when he hated me, had designs to destroy my life and reputation. Why are these disgusting males with me? How dare they have the audacity to sleep with me as they're ruining my life and reputation! What kind of pigs have I always been forced to be with? Why is it everything around me doesn't even allow me one real friend or one real relationship? I damn well know the next guy that comes my way will be another asshole who has no care for who I am as a person. My youth and beauty was wasted and ruined by the most disgusting and ugly and horrible things, and they had me blinded and controlled and kept me in desperate situations so I'd always be forced to rely upon nasty things that have no care or genuine concern about me as a person. I'm disgusted by all the abuse and illegal things these disgusting things have done to me with no remorse or repercussions, or explanation even. I'm tired of being hurt by cowards. I'm tired of having to look at scars and all the other nasty things these disgusting creatures have done to me, and know I'll never get justice, I'll never be told truth, and these disgusting things will never be any different. They still hurt me all the time, I'm convinced they poison me and punish me when they don't get their own way. What kind of selfish morons would do that to someone all their lives with no explanation? What selfish, disgusting things use women and children as leverage to get what they want? These stupid creatures, that's who. When is someone going to be man enough to tell me? This is year seven of living in misery and terrorized without friend, companion, justice or even mature explanation. I'm tired of living around these intrusive and selfish idiots and egomaniacs. Their stupid children who bully and mouth off, and get pissy because I want to talk about the abuses people suffer, trashing my stuff, jumping me, acting like idiots, won't leave me alone. How did they get so stupid? Why are they so disgusting? Why are idiots like that able to manipulate people with twice the maturity and inner beauty than they will ever have? They sent their teenage children to the beach where I was and tried to make me look like a deviant. Why don't they have a conscience? Why can't they think? Why are they so perverted, yet try to accuse me of that? They're cowardly and stupid and sly and conniving, all at the same time. I can't escape them and their behavior, they follow me everywhere. They simply don't know how to live for themselves, they won't even let us speak about the injustices and horrible abuse we've suffered, and then subject us to more abuse and lies. When are these things going to stop being so cowardly, immature and evil?
Lisa Hoffman
Wed. June 13, 2018 I decided to go out and have two beers. As I was walking, the thing I live with was across the street waving at me, so I decided to be as phony as he is and over-emote my delight at seeing him. I don't know how he lives with himself. He's looked me in the face and said he has nothing but concern about me and hopes that I have comfort, but has locked me out on the balcony with the stove on, has purposely poisoned my food and I know it. He knows they go through my belongings and he knows more than he acknowledges and he'll look me in the face and boldface lie to me with no sign of shame. He's a disgusting creature with no conscience and no right to even be a male considering he has no real man qualities. I'm totally disgusted by every male around me. Two males were crossing their arms over their chests, gesturing again, so I decided to emulate them and add a stomping foot to show them how retarded they look and behave. They're too stupid to care. I'm very frustrated. These things are all around with new trucks, some have mind raped female companions, and they're too stupid to think or care about that. They have dicks, but I don't know why. They're not men at all. They lie, they rape, they eat, they take, they teach their stupid children the same mentality, then they gesture when they want to purvey a point, when most normal humans would speak. I've said many times lately, they only use their mouths to eat or insult, but are never man enough to explain or confront. Maybe, since their race doesn't believe in words, they can eventually develop a suction cup where their mouths should be, since fucking and food and vehicles are their only concern. I was given lips to talk with and to kiss with, and these sacks of shit don't allow me to do either anymore. I'm tired of looking at these things whose stomachs begin at their genitals and end in their chests where their hearts should be.
Lisa Hoffman
Mon. June 4, 2018 I'd bet the day they sent those little girls to beat on me, they did something to my laundry to cause my allergic reactions I'm having now. They were all interested in distracting me from my laundry, even the tall, so-called security guard tried to pull me away from my laundry. They're all disgusting cowards that are attacking me, without any known cause or reason. They're idiots. They're absolutely immature idiots. Not only do I have a rash anywhere my clothes touch my skin, but I even have blisters now. They truly are all cowards and disgusting. I think they're all jealous and stupid. The least someone could do is tell me where a community of intelligent and mature people are. A community that understands privacy and respect and that manipulation is cowardly and nasty.  It's obvious that a bunch of things that have lied to us our whole lives and enslaved and abused us is not going to have the decency for honest explanations. They're incapable of truth, they're born liars. But it's disgusting how they don't even have the maturity to allow for freedom of speech and freedom of choice. They're a horrible and nasty race, or things, whatever they are. Most of the males only somewhat respect females who are subserviant and blind. When we're given sight or are defiant, they become resentful and nasty. It's true they don't know how to win over women through love and understanding and personality. They're not men, they don't understand relationships and love the way men do. They're so disgusting their true opinion of women like me is if I'm not going to serve them or sleep with them then I'm trash and deserve to die in the streets, that's how cruel and loveless they are. That's how empty and pointless they are as males. And their female counterparts are jealous and hateful. It's something people have to accept or we suffer. That's what they are. I've wondered many times as I was terrorized across this country by things that either threatened to harm me or kill me, or hit on me and tried to sleep with me, what kind of man would behave that way. I guess the answer is simple. They're accustomed to getting their own way whether by force or control, so they don't need to be nice or loving. They're not men. Since my life unraveled, I've had five or six vials of blood taken by DynaCare Labs, who have been either in towns I went to or their van was around me. They purposely violated me and gave me a vd and I didn't get cured until they got four more vials of blood from me, and now they're giving me allergies that I never had before. They profit and cause our misery and don't compensate or even ask. I'm sure they use us to try and cure themselves. Maybe it all has to do with my blood type. They're demented, despicable, opportunistic cowards. I did a little experiment on myself after my shower. I put a different lotion on my body and the lotion I bought where I noticed the consistency and colour had changed on my calves and ankles, and now my lower legs are itchy, so it is the lotion I bought from Shopper's Drug mart in Shopper's World. These things have no shame.